Come a little closer...

I had a dream last night about someone I haven’t spoken to in months and now my heart aches to talk to them again even though I know I can’t because it would jeopardize everything I have right now. Sometimes I wish I could have 2 lives going on at the same time and live them both to the fullest because I feel like I’m missing out on something here. But at the same time I’m so happy with certain aspects of my life right now, I don’t want to lose certain things or people. I just wish I could see how things would have played out had I not made the decision to stay with you. I feel like a terrible person for even saying that, I just feel like I’m missing out on something.